Changing the world.

Maybe I've simply become too judgmental? Maybe I'm not considering all of the problems that people face, and all of their weaknesses? Maybe I'm overlooking their most burdensome issue's and their most personal flaws?

Or maybe I'm simply disgusted with humanity's narcissism and their laziness. Yeah, I think that's it.

I am quite disgusted with the amount of joy I have. I've become an atrocity in my own eyes, my own mind. Who am I to enjoy life when there are so many people starving? How dare I sleep in a bed, ignoring the fact that there are boxes being worn down and shredded for comfort. How dare I simply ignore what I've been given.

Maybe its blasphemous, but I think one of the biggest flaws within the church is the lack of individual work. The Church does quite a lot, but what of those who simply sit and sleep in the comfy pews, or who simply allow each and every message to go in one ear and out the other. Or what of those who even involve themselves, and yet enjoy their lives.

I mean, if we truly sought after God, wouldn't we be seeking after people as well?

I've worked in Ministry for about a year. There are those who will say "I've worked in ministry for 10 years, 15 years, 20 years, 60 years." And even if I did work such an awesome amount of time in Ministry, I don't think that would be enough. I'm not satisfied with simply working as a Christian between 1-5 every wednesday- Friday, than doing services.

We should NOT stop the work of the Lord simply because we are tired. Tell the 5 year old boy who has to walk miles for a simple bowl of rice that your too tired to help someone out, or to look for some way to love people.

I've not been created to simply enjoy life. I CANNOT ENJOY LIFE. I WAS NOT MADE TO ENJOY MY LIFE.

I was made to help others enjoy their life. You were made to love people enough to give of your own satisfaction. What if, instead of having an iPhone and spending 100+ dollars every month, we went down a notch and spent that money on feeding someone?

I think I'm on the verge of giving up my 120+ phone bill and simply getting a phone that works as it will, and spend the rest of the money buying food for someone or helping others pay their bills. I think I'm on the verge of selling my xbox and ps2, all of my baseball cards, and even my piano, so I could spend that money helping someone else.

I'm quite disgusted with the amount of pleasure and satisfaction I have.

Looking at the world, how dare we call ourselves Christian's and be satisfied with it? How dare we call ourselves "Children of God" and not want to sacrifice, take up our cross, and go?

Spending time in church does NOT make you a christian. I think I just want to yell this out to the world, and scream this from the mountain tops. Going to church and being in a ministry does NOT make you a christian. When you change the world, and the world responds, that is Christianity. I"m sorry, I meant, that is BARE Christianity.

I guess this is called "Righteous Anger?" Maybe. I'm not sure. I just know that I'm angry at myself and so many other people for the way they have ignored the problems of the world, and simply dismissed it for the "Church" to solve, or for the Government to solve.

God made you as an answer to all of the problems of the world. And if we don't realize this, than seriously reconsider your walk with God. If the world around you isn't changing, reevaluate your life and YOUR "Christianity."

Amen.